I'm just amusing myself reading back in a couple of communities that I have recently joined. Do Masters/Dominants really think that we'll find their opinion more valid if the first thing they write in their profile is how many years of experience that they have?

I'll admit that I have mentioned on more than one occasion that I have been Lifestyle for more years of my life than years I have not, but it's not with a "subbier-than-thou" intent. I don't ever think I know all there is to know about WIITWD (What It Is That We Do) and freely admit it. It tended to be more of a joke on a previous site with the numbers of young subs in the chat room I frequented. Oh heck, I'd been a sub more years than a few of them had been alive!

I've gotten multiple messages where it's directly said "As a Master with 20 years of experience, I think..." and it just makes me want to laugh. B never felt the need to beat people over the head with the sheer number of years he'd been in the Lifestyle. I was the one who was proud of that, knowing I served someone who had had the opportunity to be exposed to and learn so much. This time he was the one with experience since before I was alive.

No real point to this post, just a gentle reminder that I get the chance to giggle at some who have found the One True Way. Maybe if I'm lucky, I'll find it too.

*snorts*

5 Topics from ashmedai Did this a week or so back and got different topics this time--I won't give you topics unless you specifically ask, so don't be afraid to comment!

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So on with my own version of medical drama. The nerve issue in my back has flared again (pinched sciatic nerve for those of you playing along at home) and is causing all sorts of interesting things to happen.

Traveling numbness in my leg, pins and needles, overall tiredness because I can't get comfortable. I'm not at the computer much because sitting is prolly the least favorable position. I'm seeing the doctor again next week.

So I'm here, I'll be reading and commenting when I can. Hoping that the continued warm weather here in the Midwest means that I improve as well. The cold nights seem to make it worse. Lovely.

Ooops. Weird day. Forgot to post. Today's song posted later.

Confessions of a Knife by My Life with the Thrill Kill Kult



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So I didn't get around to posting yesterday as it was my graduation. Here's two for today to make up for it. Thoughts afterwards...




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Comment to this post and I'll give you 5 topics that remind me of you. Then, post those subjects in your own journal and elaborate on them.

Note: I know a bunch of you are playing along already. I'll only give you topics if you ask for them. Fair enough?

eyes morgan_cian a little cross-eyed after trying (and failing) to do this in a relatively brief manner

EDITED TO ADD: LJ sucks rocks today. I can't get any of my cuts to work. And if I try any longer I will hurt something. My computer is too young to die.


Daddy/girl dynamic:
Where do I start? Well, short version, I’ve been a submissive for the better part of my life, but I never quite felt like I fit into any neat label. After lots of missteps, I was fortunate enough to meet someone who introduced me to the Daddy/girl dynamic in a way that completely made sense to me. He changed and saved my life.

For me, being a ‘little girl’ is about reclaiming something that was taken away from me. Trust that the people who love me will keep me safe, give me appropriate boundaries, teach and guide me, and hold me accountable when I fall short. In this dynamic, I’m not a particular age, just a younger version of myself. I crave the security and comfort of being held and rocked in someone’s lap, being able to act a little silly sometimes, even having a blanket for security.

For me, Daddy is a loving authority figure, not a parental one. An older, mature demeanor is a must for me, if not an actual age difference that plays into that. Part of being ‘young’ to me is having the counterpart who is the ‘adult’. I can look back and see where this has played out in many of my relationships, even those that were not D/s driven.

I’ll be honest and say that there is only one Man I’ve ever called that and I’m not sure there will ever be another, even if the dynamic of Daddy/girl is there.


Girly girls:
Hi, my name is dotty and I’m a girly girl. I was raised with three brothers, meaning that my toys and clothes and such were ALL MINE. My daughter is the same way, plus she has the added bonus of being the only female cousin/grandchild and is rather spoiled rotten in terms of clothes, etc. She loves shoes, pink, anything sparkly and shiny just like her mama.

The second part of being a ‘girly girl’ is my rediscovery of my little girl self. Those of you that have read some of my restricted work know that I have struggled with healing from my childhood. I felt deprived of being young and innocent. With my exploration into D/s, specifically the Daddy/girl dynamic, I’ve found a way to recapture the sense of wonder and security that I had lost.


Being a mom:
My greatest joy and at times my greatest struggle. I had my children relatively young (for the group of friends that I have) and at times felt like I didn’t have many contemporaries to identify with. But now that mine are 8 and 11 and they are dealing with babies and terrible two’s—I am so glad I had mine young!!!

I love being a mom. I strive to give them a better life than I had. Not monetarily, but with a greater sense of self-worth and strength. I see how they love themselves and it makes me smile. They are smart and kind and good human beings. I can’t ask for more than that.


Gray-haired men:
*sighs* I’ve always had a thing for older men. The gray hair is just a bonus. I totally see the influence of the Daddy/girl dynamic on the choices I made in men, even before I knew that’s what I was seeking. B had gorgeous silver hair, as does my husband. I can't help it, it just makes me a little swoony.

It’s just plain sexy to me. Forget Brad Pitt or Matthew McConaughey. Give me Mark Harmon or Michael Douglas or well, even Anderson Cooper even though I’m not his type. LOL.



Favorite books:
You might as well as me to pick my favorite child. I read voraciously and I tend to like whatever I am reading at the moment. My taste spans most genres and most time periods. My major in college the first time around was English with a focus in Restoration and 18th Century literature. DeFoe’s ‘Moll Flanders’ is a perpetual re-read, as is Swift’s ‘Gulliver’s Travels.’

I love Gone with the Wind, To Kill A Mockingbird, and most horror/thriller novels. It seems an odd choice considering how freakin’ romantic I can be, but it makes sense to me. Most of the time in these books, the bad guy gets punished. Revenge/retribution appeals to me, knowing that those who would do evil don’t get to walk away scot-free.

The meme: Leave a comment and I'll give you a letter, then you post five songs that begin with that letter, with links. morgan_cian gave me the letter S. And oh yeah, you get a bonus. This was the closest to 5 songs that I was going to get.



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There aren't any words today.

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Realize by Colbie Caillat

Stupid YouTube with No Embed Codes for Official Videos

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Yeah, I didn't post yesterday. It was Mother's Day and I wasn't around much. So here's 2, inspired by the 2 that made me Mama.

Our Song by Taylor Swift

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Change by Taylor Swift



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